Monday May 18th

Today Audrie called me "emo". I guess I don't care. She said it was because I have been wearing black, painted my nails black and have been listening to "emo" music...(Coldplay, GreenDay). I am not emo...just in a black phase. Crystal came over and taught me about my Cricut's Design Studio. So tonight I made 2 cards using it. I really love it and my Cricut. I have all kind of ideas to use it. I just am getting so tired lately. I need to get my energy level back up. Looks like I may have lost a friend, no fault of mine. She has been draining me and I have been supportive of her everyday. I finally figured out that she is using me and until I hear otherwise, I am just going to leave her alone. It is a shame that people do that to others. It just makes me realize not to do it to others. I am planning on cropping this weekend. Hopefully, that will lift my spirits.

disappointment

I know we all deal with disappointment from time to time. Right now my disappointment lies with my family....not my immediate family, but the one with my parents and siblings. I have come to this realization before, but it sure doesn't seem to change. We are not a part of each other's lives. When I was younger...college aged or just married, we all called each other on their birthdays and anniversaries and kids birthdays, etc. Well, as of late, no one calls anymore (me included). But what is really disappointing to me right now is even with email or facebook or anything...no one in the Meyer family shares anything. For example, my nephew made his first communion. No invitations or announcements were sent out. I can remember when any religious ceremony or event was held, it was a huge family deal. Now...no one cares or they keep exclusive to whom they want to know about it. I sent out announcements for Audrie's confirmation and no one except Grandmother and aunt responded. I am not looking for gifts for my child. I am looking for prayers for her and good wishes. How hard is that really? Are we all so caught up in ourselves that we don't share our lives with even our own families?
Another disappointment came from a former best friend. I know we all move on in our lives, but I have a friend who was once my best friend in the world. I would go over to her house and feel right at home. But as her children got older and mine were still younger, we grew apart. She no longer shares anything with me of importance. I remember when her youngest daughter was little and we would talk about "when Lauren would get married" we would do this or that. I knew I had lost her as a best friend when I found out when she was getting married, my friend took another person with her as her daughter tried on wedding gowns. And then this past weekend I received an announcement about the same daughter graduating from Law school and having a party on the day of the graduation. I had no idea at all this was happening. And how could we have known to go unless they would have told us earlier? She also took a trip (not the first time) with another couple that she talk about after the fact. We used to go on a "girls trip" once a year. I just feel very alone right now. I don't know exactly what a blog is for, but this is my place to write my feelings and sharing them. I doubt anyone in my family will read this and if they do, will do anything about it. So basically this is just my way of venting...sorry if it bothers you.
Hopefully, I will be in a better mood tomorrow. Take care!

Tuesday May 4 2009

Well, another Tuesday gone by and basically slept the day away. My new migraine medication is too powerful and makes me sleepy all the time. I cut tonight's dosage in half. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and I can CREATE something. My day is so much better when I release myself to art. Just watched "Bride Wars" and it was great. I don't remember what it was rated by there was no sex or cursing which is a huge deal to me. And I love both stars Anne Hathaway and Kate Hudson. They were both so funny and I love weddings!
Well, I am going to try to play with my new Cricut. Still exploring all of its features. Have a great day!

Monday May 4 2009

My first blog ever and I am anxious to get this up and running. I have to thank Jan and Shane Rogers for their inspiration to start my own blog...so here goes!
This past weekend was such an important crop for me as it was a benefit crop for Broken Arrow neighbors. I had a great time hanging out with the gang. We had lots of laughs and some really neat projects completed and almost everyone in our group won at least 3 raffle prizes! Ashley has a great shop, "A Memory to Scrap" in Broken Arrow, OK and hope everyone stops by to see it. Sunday was rough as LeGina, Jan and Shane felt under the weather. And then I got home feeling bad, too. However...picked up speed and had a great Sunday night as daugher Audrie made her confirmation. My little girl is growing up! Here's to a great week...cheers! Feel better everyone!